Feeling Nostalgic

It was Ash Wednesday, just another day for me, when i woke up , got ready for my class, sat in the car and drove away.  Never did i have a slight hint that this day would make me feel all so Nostalgic and connect to my past and cleanse me of all the wrong doings and the steps which i had trodden knowingly or unknowingly.

It was a moment after class , it wasnt me who decided to step into God's abode and spend a few minutes at peace. Education is what makes a person different from all the others. My parents had given me the best, and the school was a christian missionary school in the now hustling town of Hyderabad. I had learnt to respect, learnt to pray, learnt to give, learnt to be gentle and of all learnt to be the best a human can be. It was all uploaded into me (using more of a technical term) over the 10 years of education i had.

And this day, brought back to me all the memories which i had somewhere down there in my heart. It was an instant feeling to just step into the church and spend a few moments looking at him and it gave me a glimpse into the past i had lived in harmony and at peace. It created a bridge between the good past and the present i was walking on , which was broken down over the last few years and i never realized it.

But the feeling of being holy and blessed and the feeling of connecting to my past makes me  alive and even more stronger. It was a miracle that happened and made me to go in there and feel Nostalgic, and yet again the sweetness was there with me all through. When i think of how i went in, how i sat in peace and how it made me feel all nostalgic. Then realized you were there too and i smiled to myself. 

2000 days under the full moon

For some love is to be there and to do things, to praise them often and buy them costly things. For others it to do crazy things, to go places and get lost in a timeless embrace. But most often we forget the fact that love is always and has been forever timeless and unconditional. The moment you start weighing your options and you start thinking about alternatives, the moment you start weighing the pro’s and con’s of being with someone, pop goes the bubble and you are all drenched in ego and attitude.

I have seen and also experienced things as such and it is a very painstaking phase to go through, unless you have a strong will and a strong reason to be thinking of while you go through it alone. I have seen people taking things easy and moving on, I have also seen a few blocking themselves from the entire world. Friends are around and your family is always there to support you in every way, why not share it with them? Well most of us don’t, that’s again a phase where the ego strikes back. But how many of us have tried letting oneself go , setting the spirit free and just opening out with someone whom you trust the most,  or someone who makes you feel comfortable all through.  Guess most of us don’t.

Well this is about the 2000 days I spent under the full-moon and though it to be all heavenly and god sent. Hmmmmm not until I saw how frost-bitten one feels on a windy, cold night having to stare at the moon all along. It’s so easy to be deceived by how beautiful the moon looks until you start noticing it and you suddenly see the moon spots or the dark spots on it. This is about him, the friend I had written about and mentioned how he wanted to turn a new leaf and give his life a new portal to pass through and fresh waters to swim. He had let his life to take a turn and be churned enough and by the time he could notice the change, he had lost most of what he had cherished in life and the people those who were in his life. He was blindfolded to such an extent that he could not see beyond the dark veil covering his eyes. By the time he realized everything was over.

He then met a few good friends those who put some brain into him, and then he began to see life the way it was before to him. Not completely though, it was still foggy and he needed more friends than before, as he had lost quite a few. It was this intense battle he always fought with himself and he used to get messed up and taken down most of the time. N then one fine day, he felt blessed. He had got a friend who would listen to almost anything and everything he would want to say. N then things started to change, from bad to good, from stress to de-stress, from clouds to clear sky. The friend was indeed God sent is what he felt. He was so at peace with the world, he had changed completely and on asking he said this friend was so calm and composed and so mature in thoughts and actions. There was always something to the way he was given an assurance or a reply which had a really strong and long lasting impact. Apart from all these teeny weeny things, there was this charm to her and her ways of making things understand in relaity. Never had he known or he had ever opened up so much to anyone that he felt the burden over his shoulders lighten up and he had a very out of this world kind feeling.

With eyes deep and brown, when you look into them you just drown.

A smile so warm, you just melt even when she is angry and frowns.

A patient listener and the more you talk and share, life seems pretty fair.

No doubt the best things happen, when you least expect them to come in your way,

Every time I speak to you, a strange sense of excitement takes me over,

What’s it to you and your personality?, it really makes me wonder in every way.

Everything to you just makes you so perfect, or is it just me with that percept.

You are just so mystical and the more I interact the more I feel being healed,

The essence you carry about life, which you make me realize,

 It gets into me in a jiffy, and it makes me go all alive.

There’s a strange divinity that radiates from you, 

which just gets things going, for those who believe and trust in you.

Yet you never really open up with anyone, and I happened to be the lucky few, 

who got to know completely about you.

I am not sure if I share a special space in your life, 

but you will is what I am forever sure in my life.

I wish our friendship stays the same and grows older and better with time, just as wine.

N I am yet to discover and define the sense of feeling you invoke when not on my mind,

 but there is still time for me to make sense to what’s so divine.

You ended the pain and the agony I had, being under the full moon most of the times,

With me wondering where my life would get me to, during all those unsure times.

You are truly an angel sent from above, who set my life on the success path. :)