God rings in Help

Its been quiet a hectic weekend with Christmas and cousins. Had the best time ever. Never felt a single moment of missing my family back home in India. Back to NJ finally. :) So he too had a pretty good Christmas vacation. Had enough time to figure things out, he wanted to fix everything he had messed up with family, friends and loved ones over the last four years, i suddenly realized he never mentioned who was on call the other day. On asking he said, it was from a girl who had loved him in college. She was crazy and madly in love with him, but he never reciprocated neither did he think of her, as he was in a relation with the girl whom he though to be his life. Though he was telling me about how they met and why she happened to like him , all the while his tone was balanced, his eyes never twitched and his voice was strong and capturing. I knew he was serious and was not joking. I asked him , then why did she have to call you now? Does she still love you? Do you want to get things going with her? . His reply was a stern NO to every question i asked. Then he explained. When he was in college, the girl liked him but because he was in a relation he never wanted to interact with her, but as a friend, he kept reassuring himself, this cannot happen and he kept reminding the girl, he cannot be anything but friends. Even though they were friends he always shared things which he never could with anyone else, but when things went bitter , the only person who could make him understand and tell him the right approach was her. They were friends, they always have been and they will be friends forever. SO why did she call?? , She called to tell him he did the right thing, to let go. When someone treats you like an option then the only option you have is to let go. He said, she is happy now, she has finally found her man and i am happy for them too. They make the best couple ever. She advised him to move on and weed out all the hatred, heal the relationships he had to loose in order to be with someone who never knew the value of him in life. She asked him to speak to his parents about it all, pour his heart out and he shall fell better and rejuvenated. She asked him to make new friends, to find those who think like him, who understand him as a friend. He did all that and now, he is happy again, content and satisfied with the way his life was and his future though it seemed cloudy, he was ready to walk blindfolded for he had his people standing behind him, walking with him, ready to support him. I heard it all, and i asked are you happy, he looked into my eyes, smiled and said NOT YET. So why wasn't he happy??

Introverts!!

I have been working on the previous part - God rings in Help. But before that i found something really cool. About me and about people like me. Read on!!

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.
Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.
Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.
Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.
Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.
Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.
Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.
Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.
Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.
Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.
It turns out introverts comprise only about 25% of the population. Hoooray! I finally made it into a minority! I want special “rights”! Credits to Metaphysicalperegrine blog

She said, He said and she knows it all now.

He came to me, he poured it all out, he had tears in his eyes and all he could say was "i am filled with misery, pain and sorry, i have had enough, cannot take this anymore". I advised, look deep inside, do you trust her, do you believe her, do you still yearn for her?. He said, yes i do, but that her is in me, not out there whom i see. It was all over that very second. He had called her enough times, she never responded. He had heard enough from people around, but when he went to see her and saw the smile on her face and the proximity she was in with him, he was shattered. He cursed himself before me, for having got into something he never should have. It was always his fault, he let himself be used, utilized and taken advantage of all the time. He was alone responsible for what his life looked like now. He said, she never realized the importance of it, she never even cared what was in store for them in future, all she cared for was to live this present moment. I slapped him hard, and said she was not worthy of it. She was not worthy of any second he had thought of her, spent with her and felt for her. He has to let go. Yes he has to. It was time to move on. It was time to mend his ways, his life and his future. There was something better coming up. Just when he was about to say no, the phone rang. He saw the name, he had a puzzled look on his face. He didn't want to answer it, so let it ring. It rang again and this time he looked at me. Instantly i knew he wanted to be left alone. I walked out, and after about 15 minutes he called me in. He said you were right. God listens to me. I asked was it her, he said no; gave a long pause and said it was a long lost friend and i got the reply to what i was thinking of. He got up from the sofa, but now more courageous, i could see his shoulders unburdened and he had the confidence and faith in the future. There seemed to be a glow on his face , i asked him if he was alright and he replied "To forgive is to set a prisoner free and realize that prisoner was you." It struck me then, he had forgiven her, he knew not what had happened and knew what was in store, he let go of all the worries and they trouble him no more. His every step was more confident and his eyes were sparkling with the will of God and the might of his forgiveness. I then knew what he had been through. Now he left me wondering who the call was from and who was that messenger of God. Coming soon.... God rings in help!! :)

More to what she did not know

He waited all this while, patiently and yet lost his cool at times. But like in any relation there are things sweet and bitter, just like yin and yang to balance things in life. He was rude, she was sweet. Times when she was rude, he was sweet. They balanced everything with patience and healed everything with Love. But when everything was going the right, God has his own rules to test everything in its own way. He threw one such rule and things messed up. This time they were not aware of the consequences and like always both ended hurting each other. It was pain which both felt but not of their own but of each others. They were taken over by pain and grief and it was time again for them to get a balance. He never wanted to let go of her but she kept slipping away. Every time he asked her to be careful she mistook it to be over possessive. He was there to hold her in every fall she had. He still is. I hope she realizes his love, his care, his pain, his anger, his jealousy, his lust, his belief, and over all his trust in her. Life is a concoction of all this and with this they make life wholesome. He still waits for her to land in his arms and be safe and engulfed in his warmth. If only...... I leave this line incomplete for them to realize and learn this. hmmmmmm... I pray for them like all the others close to them do.

Things she never knew and never will know ;)

He has been speaking about things called feelings, love, affection, relation but all these point out to a person or a group of persons with whom you he was connected to in an immense bond which nobody can ever give an explanation to. Since time immemorial people have always tried to explain these feelings in every way possible, but none of these are content to make u understand what it really means. There was one such person in his life. She showed him love in all the ways he could ever get. She took care of him like a baby, gave him everything he always wanted but then things started fading away and but the time he could realize what was going wrong, it was late. He cries in darkness and in the rain, the pain's sweet as its filled with her memories and love but the longing is forever. Her hair, the soft long silky strands which just slip off his fingers, her eyes so bright, like sunshine which always kept him warm and showed him the right way to tread on. Her smile so sweet, that even if you take your last breath, you would feel like sleeping on an angel's lap. Her smile is a gently curved line which always set things straight for him. Its been quite long that they have been into this together, time just ceases to move and the world never exists in their presence and when she speaks its like the oldies love songs playing to him in her eyes. Oh they made such a lovely pair. If only they could realize what has happened and get back to where they begun. Even the God's would despise their love and their pair, they were such good in every way.